Finding what i really need

What is life? Does it just fill the gaps between birth and death? Is it meant to be active? Is this just another phase i finding what i really need? Do i remember past lives?

Sometimes i wonder if i am doing what i wanted to do with this life. I feel i have wasted many years to date, but then that may in fact all be a part of the awakening process for me.

Can life be over analysed? Under analysed? Wasted?

Perhaps it is an exploration, like any physical journey. The road has many sidetracks that can be taken and they themselves may reveal the most amazing scenery or experiences like meeting new people and connecting with them.

I often ponder on why some people make such a positive impact on our lives. What is it that makes them special, that connects with us at such a deep level, inspires and touches us?

Perhaps we aren't meant to know what it is, but i doubt it. Perhaps in fact it may be the essence of how we are meant to exist and we have just forgotten somewhere in the last 100,000 years or so.

Animals seem to connect in a way that most (civilized) humans cannot. They seem to just understand. They know where they fit into the scheme of things. We on the other hand are so caught up in what to do to fill our time, how to earn our money, how to find a partner, how to impress ourselves into this world.

Are we too knowledgable for our own good? Surely we can learn to rise above all of this.